Journal reads: I find myself, once again, at the beginning of a new year. Every year I try to collect my thoughts and have a game-plan of things I would like to accomplish in the new year. This year I'm not feeling very motivated. To say the past two years have been difficult, would be a complete understatement. I'm mentally exhausted and physically I have taken a beating. Dealing with my parents estate has been a blessing and a curse all at the same time. I have given myself permission to deal with all the crazy emotions and memories that cleaning out their house embodied. But it has also been an excuse to put myself on the back burner again and I have the crappy attitude that goes along with it. I have to let go of the past, mostly the failures and disappointments. Even as I'm writing this, I don't feel like I have the confidence or motivation to put the past behind me and start fresh. I want to. I really want to. I'm feel like I'm waiting for that inner-something to snap and I'll be on my way. But for now I'll write my thoughts down and just hope that 2014 brings a wave of positivity to deal with myself again. I will keep trying and keep believing that I will get back to the frame of mind that had me in a happier place. A change has to be made and it will…one day, one step, one breath at a time.
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